Navigating Through the Storm – Chidera Allison
Our fourth feature is my sister, Chidera Allison
Here’s what she had to say:
The storm does not negate the presence of God, nor does it indicate the absence of God. You’re wondering where God is when you’re going through a storm? You can’t see God because you can’t see in a storm. That’s why the Lord told you to walk by faith and not by sight. In Isaiah 43:2, He promised that when you pass through the waters, he’ll be with you. God is with you in the storm.
I’m currently treading the greatest storm of my young adult life. I’m constantly in a state of anxiety and confusion. There’s nothing more frustrating than lack of control and stability especially for a person like me. I’m a planner. I’m always planning and re-planning, when I hit an obstacle, I recalculate. I take pride in being able to navigate situations and find a way out, with God by my side, of course.
I’ve been battling with my faith all year. Sometimes, I get mad at God because I strive to follow him, read and obey his word. I think I get mad because I struggle to see that, ‘the storm does not negate the presence of God, nor does it indicate the absence of God.’ I wonder where he is and why he’s left me at what feels like rockbottom. The mental and spiritual weakness is crippling. I’m fighting to hold on to God but I wake up some days and have no words to say to him. I want to say it’s unfair that I have to go through this storm but I wonder who deserves it. No one. I think maybe God gives the greatest battles to the strongest people. I haven’t been feeling very strong.
This lack of strength is causing me to isolate myself. I don’t want to be the person that breaks down every time I’m asked, ‘how are you?’ The truth is, I’m not good.
However, through all of this uncertainty, I’m trying to be certain that the only reason I feel like I can’t see God is because visibility is low in a storm.
A storm definitely can’t last forever.
My sister has always been a huge inspiration to me, her words have helped me through times when I felt alone. She may not know this, but now she does lol. This piece here is so relatable. If you’re going through a hard time, I hope this was able to help you. Thank you for sharing your words with us Chidera, I love you. Be sure to check out more of her work on her blog called, Beneath My Perfect.